right side of my brain

Thats my right side of my brain. Getting ready for my surgery. I am still wondering why do I have to take my whole head just for my gum surgery...mmm... It took me a while to take this pic.. if u look closely, u can see the 'sub court' in my brain. Noriz and I were laughing our hearts out. Well, this pic is one pic need to be treasured.

Next week is my surgery, some part of me tells me, how I wish my heart stops when OP is in process, but again its my stupidity to think that, what has Heart got to do with Gums. Oh well, but feeling very nervous... jus wanted to tell my friends. I LOVE U ALL. U guys always keep me going ... Thank you very much. There is tamil saying, whenever u in pain, the people who stands by u are your real friends. Am glad, that I have earned such friends who are always there when I cry.

To Nesh, take care of yrself and dont worry everything will be fine and be happy and strong always.

Quick update, looks like.. I have to really gear myself up to find a job next year. My work load is getting higher and higher but I beginning to manage it pretty well, I think the worst comes in April when Naz leaves for her exam leave. I hope I stay calm. Oh! another thing, I gotten a B for performance. I was happy tat my boss can see who is working and who is not.

Am not going to write anything about my personal life anymore. Suffering, Hurtful words from my own people. I still wondering why is God toturing me like this. Loneliess and not Loved is most cruel thing which can happen to anyone. I really hope I can stop breathing soon... I really hope...I am too tired to FIGHT and PRAY for anyone to come and save me.... The only console is food for me now. My mother told me, am looking very fat and ugly. Well, what can I do?? It hurts to hear this from my mother but I cant do anything abt it.

Dear Ganesha, Look @ me, I come and visit u every tues without fail. Why are u doing this to me? Why am I useless daughter to my parents? What did they do to get a daughter like me? If u are really there watching....jus take my life... At least my brother can get married and make my parents happy. Ahem