Evil Me

Many things happened today which made me emotional. Maybe I am not well. My office people left me alone and went to eat. I used my veenai practise as an excuse but the truth is I am broke. I have only ten more dollars in my bank account. This brought little tears in my eyes, but when I lift up my face I saw Kim with a plastic bag with bread.I may be broke but I have friends who are around me when I cry. I also had friends ordering me to go and see doctor which was really touching.

Then my boss came to me and say "sara are u sick ? I said Yes. Then I should make u more sick". I asked him what is he going to do.. he said he is going to put up for my emplacement. This is so fast then I thought. Aiyo.. where am I going to go with just a Diploma. I have to start all over again....

I came home, my mother told me my father is not well again and they are going to bring him Mount E to see another doctor. I was like omg! that's a very expensive. But while we were talking, my father came and gave my mother a big bundle of money which he saved up secretly to buy bangles for my mother. Even my mother had tears. I was so shock to see the loving side of my father. I always thought he doesn't care about anyone in the family. My brother also said lots of money being used up for travelling. I am the only one who cant contribute much. The only thing I can do for them is pray for their health and happiness.

Another emotional thing which I got to know is. My mother has spoke to her future in law(my brother's girlfriend's mother). And she was saying hopefully next year they will go and talk things officially. I was very happy to hear that finally a wedding is going to happen in the family. Ganesha, Please make this happen. Please.

Everyone was happy expect for me. Evil me, why am I not happy.. why am I being so jealous? I have no one to buy me bangles or get me dinner when am hungry. I will be left sitting alone like I was sitting in office.

Ganesha, I dint want to die alone. I have been sick since last week, struggled through nights. There was no one to look after me.... I cant even tell anyone how tired I am. There is no one to ask me that also...

I guess my fever has lead to lots of blabbering. I should have an early night. Good nitez